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I know I have to contemplate from time to time on how I am doing at the moment. I keep on dragging and dragging it, and this is exactly the problem that I'm trying to get out from - I let life drag me wherever it wants.

By the time I realize, it's already half a year since I live in this town. While my current workplace provides a huge mental space for me to breathe, most of the time it feels too lax for my liking and I'm not growing as much as I want to. The places I've been was either too demanding or too loose. I wonder if I'm asking too much by wanting a place that could balance those.

I'm working on my mini album (EP? Single?) at the moment. After August, I will actively search for new places to apply to. I might move out before my contract ends, which sucks, but perhaps worth the price.

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My friend Musini recently recommended me the webtoon Like Mother, Like Daughter by YIDAHM. The end of season 2 blew my mind. If you like the twist in the game Virtue's Last Reward, you probably will enjoy this as much as I do.

I landed a job out of town and had to move before the year ends. I am currently staying in the house that my grandma used to live in. We are still unsure if commuting is viable from this place or whether if I should rent a room near the workplace.

Well, I am still unsure if I'm making the right choice in accepting this job. Honestly, I am just hoping that the change of environment will be good for my general wellbeing.

Anyway, I beat Ys Origin on Normal yesterday. The lore of Ys land was pretty fascinating.

From now on I will try writing here, instead of doing god knows whatever I'm usually doing...

When I skip out working on something, I will make an excuse to myself by blaming how weird my right wrist has been recently. Since I've been practicing piano again after a while, the wrist also began to constantly hurting. Now I need to be very, very careful and conscious of my right hand. I keep it from straining even a little bit. I changed my mouse to a vertical one, and I rest it in a natural position every few minutes. By natural position, I mean I cannot keep it bent horizontally like when I type or playing the keyboard for too long. It took me a good while to find out that that was the reason it starts to hurt.

Not being able to use my right wrist had been a huge discomfort for me, so I cannot for my life imagine what if some other part of me is suddenly paralyzed or something. You really always take things for granted...