went to peskom bandung today and splurged so much on so many awesome indonesian comics!! i might've spent more than i did on comifuro last month. will edit later for photos of both comifuro and peskom bandung loots.
edit: forgot to put pic but whatever. was really disappointed to find out that one of these artists worked for pizza hut and many were supporting him.
how to stop feeling empty? i guess this is a result of me putting off my moving preparation. i have too much plastic wastes in my room and i don't know what to do with it. i know the only thing to do was to throw it away, but it's just disheartening to know it will be piled onto the landfill, burned and turned into greenhouse gas.
i wanted to finish at least a track before moving out of here. i also had to catch up with learning because previous work has not taught me anything and even primed me to use terrible practices. frankly i'm afraid that this is all a huge mistake and the branch manager of my new job would find out on our next meeting. we still have not determine which client i will be placed in.
i don't know what came to me, but i wasted 6 hours playing gta iv, stopping after the weird dude who demands you to kill everyone killed me. i was playing dragon's dogma like crazy prior to playing gta iv, and i can't believe that was the one people called "janky" instead of the latter where the way the character walks feels so clunky.
this apparently was the "cut-off" game where people still use old phones and go to cafes to browse internet. although i don't think the core activities was that different from the modern gta v.
I know I have to contemplate from time to time on how I am doing at the moment. I keep on dragging and dragging it, and this is exactly the problem that I'm trying to get out from - I let life drag me wherever it wants.
By the time I realize, it's already half a year since I live in this town. While my current workplace provides a huge mental space for me to breathe, most of the time it feels too lax for my liking and I'm not growing as much as I want to. The places I've been was either too demanding or too loose. I wonder if I'm asking too much by wanting a place that could balance those.
I'm working on my mini album (EP? Single?) at the moment. After August, I will actively search for new places to apply to. I might move out before my contract ends, which sucks, but perhaps worth the price.
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My friend Musini recently recommended me the webtoon Like Mother, Like Daughter by YIDAHM. The end of season 2 blew my mind. If you like the twist in the game Virtue's Last Reward, you probably will enjoy this as much as I do.
I landed a job out of town and had to move before the year ends. I am currently staying in the house that my grandma used to live in. We are still unsure if commuting is viable from this place or whether if I should rent a room near the workplace.
Well, I am still unsure if I'm making the right choice in accepting this job. Honestly, I am just hoping that the change of environment will be good for my general wellbeing.
Anyway, I beat Ys Origin on Normal yesterday. The lore of Ys land was pretty fascinating.
From now on I will try writing here, instead of doing god knows whatever I'm usually doing...
When I skip out working on something, I will make an excuse to myself by blaming how weird my right wrist has been recently. Since I've been practicing piano again after a while, the wrist also began to constantly hurting. Now I need to be very, very careful and conscious of my right hand. I keep it from straining even a little bit. I changed my mouse to a vertical one, and I rest it in a natural position every few minutes. By natural position, I mean I cannot keep it bent horizontally like when I type or playing the keyboard for too long. It took me a good while to find out that that was the reason it starts to hurt.
Not being able to use my right wrist had been a huge discomfort for me, so I cannot for my life imagine what if some other part of me is suddenly paralyzed or something. You really always take things for granted...